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Crystal, your true color is Black!
Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection.

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Crystal's Blog

hmmm..not sure about cyrstals blogging here: "I always admire the courage Andi has for her future, non-stop steps of travelling and entrepreneurship all over the world, no fear for degree, money, diseases, etc.. I'm just a normal girl, while I term myself as a Global Leader in @, my true ambition lies in being a mortal, not a model."

And want to add some points: First wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Girl! you cant even imagine! FEAR is something I have... do you think i am not concerned about a Sh**** degree... about money now and in future, hahaha..ok lets leave the deseases out..:)
The thing is how you deal with fears. Theres the difference between people.
I dont mind blowbacks...people talking stupid things behind my back screwing up my applications because of their emotional disability,get my head kciked by another fighter because he was this millisecond faster than me, i dont mind falling down..because the wonderful thing is standing up..stronger than before knowing that not matter what happens..come on..theres always a life afterwards. Maybe not better, but different.
Let me tell you one story: Your natural program in your mind in case of danger is, you either attack or run away. Natural instinct. In Martial arts, or Taekwondo, YOU have to be stronger than your instinct. There is no running away, there is no second chance not matter how scared you are. No matter how your stomach crumbels, not matter how loud the inner voice screams "Run"...not matter how soft your legs become..there is only one thing you can do: ATTACK. One chance...one kick against the head...knock out. Thats all that count. Every time you win, it diminishes the fear a little bit. You never really loose the fear of losing; you keep challenging it.
In life we feel reluctant to take the step when we are scared. Most of us would never attack, rather we justify and therefore loose. Why not applying for AI? Someone is better..so what? You want it so do it. Scared of leaving Hong Kong moving to Bahrain or Jordan? Thats life. Security will not challenge you. Not living your dream because your scared will unltimatly destroy your dreams.

Noone can be a global Leader if he/she cant sort out her/his personal leadership. How do you want to be a global leader if you dont trust yourself, believe in your abilities and your strong sense of making true what ever you want? Leadership is not about what you want to be, but what you are.
Not knowing what is next is fine. Sorry to tell that all PD people out there, but I gave up on planning. Otherwise I would be AP Manager by today, HK Champion in Taekwondo and married..hahaha...ok not the last one. Life is exciting because it usually turns out different than what we expected it to be. And deleting files doesnt mean that you delete the memory of it. Your have tremendous potential, knowledge, connections, you just need to make up your mind what is it that drives you? What do you want? Life is more than AIESEC. Life is more than the shitty appartment. Maybe I dont care much about this appartment, the ants and the shower because I know it is not what is important. It is one step in a line of experiences that will bring me forward, give me a tremendous learning experience (just living with you...you know how we challenge each other), but in the end..its just 12 month out of my life. And the people you met here. I wished you would go out in the world and meet more. MSN are not the people how they are, it never reflects how you really are. And you know...after all this bla bla...my final thought:

I wish you would go out there...challenge your instinct, challenge your fear... meet people...and become the leader you aspire to be. Dont dream about changes....JUST DO IT!

Our days and legacy

There are numerous things happening this week. At this moment, I'm feeling extremely fatigue, as well as the "fever" which makes me quite sick.

These days, I think of Changes.

I always admire the courage Andi has for her future, non-stop steps of travelling and entrepreneurship all over the world, no fear for degree, money, diseases, etc..

I'm just a normal girl, while I term myself as a Global Leader in @, my true ambition lies in being a mortal, not a model.

Tonit, I always think of so many people. Bomi, Anika, Vladi, Marco, Melina, Andi, Gary, Mandy, JacSo, Ron, me and so many ppl who have or had stayed in this MC flat for one, two or some days. (Maybe Andi's taking vacation soon and Marco's leaving triggers my thoughts, since andi's stereotype in my mind is that she will be always staying with the flat.) There is one 60-hundred-millionth of chance that 2 people get to know each other in the world. Not to mention the possibility of staying in the same tiny apartment, to talk about our life and future, to share a single day of fun. This 12-month, we stay with each other, we always quarrel and fight for nothing with each other, we share the same tears and annoyances, we take the tram from SW to MTR Station, we take No.101 bus from flat to PolyU, we climb up the shitty hill to HKU, we take the bird look at the gorgeous night sight of Central at the peak.

There are also so many unique miracles in this flat, such as the one-minute-flooding bath room, such as if we want to boil water, we have to take the water from the water heater in bathroom and heat it up in the oven, such as we have to kill the ants on the table when working on strategic plans, such as we have the same frequency of changing the door with doing the clean-up. But I do cherish this year and these people I have met and known in my age of 22-year-old, when all of us are young, when all of us don't know what we are reli after in life, when all of us are moving to different parts of the world after taking the last step out of the flat.

I begin deleting my documents in my laptop which I have saved for four years. Gary always says that I have every document in @.net and now I have to delete them for other non-@ stuff. But before I deleted every single document, I would think of the time and the excitement spent on it, oh God, they are our legacy and they are also part of my @ life.

I'm feeling quite lost rit now, maybe b/c I'm lost about the direction I'm heading for, or maybe I don't want my AIESEC life to finish in the coming 2 months, or maybe I'm missing you too much, or maybe people are always emotional when they are sick, or maybe all of the above.

How to cherish our days enough? Tell me, if u get the answer.